L Train

Katharyn took out Rilke’s Letters To A Young Poet and read it while the L train stood stationary during one of its delays. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed a tall blonde peering over her shoulder, trying to get a glimpse of what she read. He possessed the kind of good looks admired in the 1950s: hair combed neatly to the side, a clean shaven face and chiseled features. Katharyn’s cheeks began burning when she realized he had turned his attention from her book to her face. She tried to keep reading but her brain no longer recognized the groups of letters on the page as meaningful words. She stuffed the book into her purse.

“So, what are you going to be late for?” It took Katharyn a few seconds to realize the blonde man spoke to her. She looked up at him and laughed, sharing solidarity in the trials and tribulations of riding the unreliable L train.

“I’ll be late for class,” she replied. “And you?”

“Work. Where do you go to school?”

“NYU.”

“What’s your major? I went to NYU too.”

“I’m getting my master’s in music.”

“Oh, I thought you were an undergrad. Cool. I work in advertising.”

Katharyn started to grow uncomfortable with the old ennui of the small talk. She said, “That’s nice,” and looked down at her feet, hoping he would go away. He was cute, but it was nine am and she was sleepy and didn’t know what to say. By now the L had started moving, and her stop was only a few moments away.

“Do you live in Williamsburg?” he asked.

“Yup.  I just moved to Greenpoint, off of Manhattan Ave. I love it, the neighborhood is very safe and quiet.”

The train arrived at her stop, and she indicated to the blonde man she had to get off. He smiled and said, “Great, this is my stop too!” They walked up the stairs and exited into Union Square in silence, too busy pushing through their fellow commuters to continue chatting.

When they broke free from the crowd, the blonde man extended his hand and said, “My name is Peter,” and she said, “Katharyn.” They shook hands and stared at each other. Katharyn said, “Well, it was nice meeting you,” and started to walk away as Peter said, “Wait, can I have your number?” Katharyn gave it to him, and started babbling. “This week is really bad for me, and I’m going away this weekend, so yeah…just um…” Peter laughed, “I live here, so no rush. Don’t worry. I’ll give you a call.”

 

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home

I’m back home in smalltown, Massachusetts for a few days, and damn it feels good. Coming home  from New York feels like curling up in bed with a million cozy blankets after a week-long coke binge in a blizzard (yes, by blizzard, I actually mean the weather kind). From the moment I step off the train at South Station, I feel a sense of relief and comfort, and run immediately to all my favorite Boston spots before getting on a train home to the North Shore. My favorite things? Sipping an Old Cuban at Eastern Standard, meandering through Boston Garden, savoring cannoli from Caffe Vittoria, walking up and down Newbury Street shopping my brains out, and catching up with old friends at Starbucks along the way. My eyes never fail to tear up and I breath an audible sigh of content when my foot first touches Boston ground after my journey from New York.

After doing the necessary Boston activities, I hop on the commuter rail to Gloucester, Massachusetts, the beautiful seaside town in which my family resides. Upon my return last night, my mother had prepared for me a delicious meal of homemade spaghetti and tiramisu; it’s ok to be jealous. Being home, enveloped by such warmth and love and the smell of pies in the oven, is a feeling I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. I squeezed my puppy until she ran away from me, and fell into bed with a grin on my face. I love New York but will always eagerly count down the days until I am able to visit home.

Happy Thanksgiving, friends and family. Count your blessings.

Coolidge Reservation, Manchester-By-The-Sea, Massachusetts

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i wanted to slit my fucking wrists…

“I wanted to slit my fucking wrists. Look at this world, it’s all so shallow. You want me to pay eighty bucks to listen to you bitch about your mother for two hours? I don’t think so.”

-Playwright J.T. Rogers, on the state of contemporary American theater

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reading list

A Spy in the House of Love – Anais Nin

Letters to a Young Poet - Rilke

The Heart is a Lonely Hunter – Carson McCullers

Howard’s End – E.M. Forster

Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy

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a glimpse

My teeny Brooklyn bedroom is finally starting to feel like my own stylish, cozy nook in this crazy city. NYC and Brooklyn are the places to be for finding eclectic new and vintage furniture and accessories, and I’ve been having a blast spending afternoons discovering neat things to make my bedroom feel like me. Some favorite finds: bleeding skull candles at Old Hollywood, a vintage lamp from Ugly Luggage, this bizarre coffee table book Patently Erotic (this solidified my weirdness to my roommates), and dried lavender from l’occitane displayed in wine carafes from Crate and Barrel. Some items I’m still craving? Vintage hooks for behind my door, a soft and ideally furry rug, a love seat, and more shelves. Where are your favorite places to buy home goods?

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Always alone, never lonely

For ultimately, and precisely in the deepest and most important matters, we are unspeakably alone; and many things must happen, many things must go right, a whole constellation of events must be fulfilled, for one human being to successfully advise or help another.

Rilke

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Drunk dial

Lu – lu – la – livviiii. This is one ________. I have been drinking straight tequila outova fucking bu-buttlefilled, oh, for about a lifetime now. And I am fucking wrecked. As I look through my phone list, you are the first person I wanted to call…and I feel like that says something…uh….man…I am really drunk…(inaudible sounds) and the best way I’m going to do this is by stream of thoughtful word, in three, two one: poison, girl, sailing, buoy, harbormaster, dillweed, vampire, wherewolf, ten miles per hour, Somerville, Boston, lampost, lightening, and, are you ready for this last one? Tattoos. I hope I am not rambling, but I cannot help but ramble because such is the nature of being drunk. But I am glad of all people I am rambling to you. And I hope we can touch base soon. Cheers.

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dialogue

“You know, I’ve never kissed a white girl before.”

“Oh, is that right?”

“Yeah…”

“Well, I suppose it’s no different from kissing a person of any other race.”

“Can I kiss you? Just so I can say I’ve kissed a white girl.”

“No.”

“It doesn’t have to be sexual, a peck is all I need…”

“I applaud your initiative, but the answer now and always will be ‘no’.”

“Do you think I’m attractive? Scale of one to ten.”

“I can’t answer that.”

“Why not?”

“Because I hardly know you.”

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graves

There is something very eerie and personal about being awake and active during the early hours of the morning. It makes me feel like doing secret things; it makes me feel like I’m solitary in the world.

I’m up, drinking peppermint tea, and reading epitaphs.

Eugenia Todd

Have any of you, passers-by,

Had an old tooth that was an unceasing

discomfort?

Or a pain in the side that never quite left you?

Or a malignant growth that grew with time?

So that even in proufoundest slumber

There was shadowy consciousness or the phantom

of thought

Of the tooth, the side, the growth?

Even so thwarted love, or defeated ambition,

Or a blunder in life which mixed your life

Hopelessly to the end,

Will, like a tooth, or a pain in the side,

Float through your dreams in the final sleep

Till perfect freedom from the earth-sphere

Comes to you as one who wakes

Healed and glad in the morning!

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happiness is

Anais Nin

Bond no 9

East River State Park

Erasure’s “Sucker for Love”

Record stores

Beauty and Essex

Red lipstick

Pouring over music at coffee shops

Trench coats

Siberian husky puppies

Dance parties

What are your favorite things?

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rilke

No great art has ever been made without the artist having known danger.

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icon: anna karina

photos via google image search

 

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small spaces and bookshelves

Apartment inspiration from theselby.com…I particularly love their focus on the way homemakers play with creating visually appealing displays out of every day objects like books and lamps; no surface is merely a vehicle for storage.

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duo

My infatuation with these two queens of style will never die. Vive les Olsen twins.

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thoughts on brooklyn thus far

I have left and returned to my new apartment dozens of times in hopes that just once I will feel as though I am coming home. Surrounded by other people’s bicycles and someone’s unfinished jigsaw puzzle, I can’t help but feel uneasy and out of place, as though I am in a museum and I am prohibited from touching anything. Perhaps once I see how my housemates interact with their belongings will I become more comfortable in my new home.

Brooklyn acts as one giant art portfolio, filled with many different mediums. I find beauty in everything, and love wandering through the industrial East River waterfront as much as I enjoy exploring the trendy Bedford Ave shops. Untainted by tourists, the urban landscape teems with creative individuals determined to contribute their own bit of culture and intellect, whether it be educating people on the fine art of coffee drinking, making music and visual art, or sharing fresh and innovative furniture designs. There are no social parasites. Everyone is deeply committed to enhancing their corner of Brooklyn.

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dream cream

I have been hunting for the perfect beauty products since age ten when I purchased my first Bonne Bell glitter face gel. I’m happy to say I’ve come a long way from those days and I no longer wish my face to resemble a disco ball. However, up until yesterday I still hadn’t reached make up nirvana. Years of attempting to even out my skin tone and to create the “flawless-no-make-up-I-roll-out-of-bed-and-look-like-a-dewy-moon-fairy” look has resulted in sometimes disastrous results: pancake face, dewy to the point of greasy, allergic reactions, criticism from mom…I never seemed to get it quite right. Enter Laura Mercier, dream product to the rescue. Ladies and gentlemen (well, mostly ladies I suppose), let me tell you about the only skin product you will ever need for the rest of your life. Continue reading

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champagne summer

This is a bittersweet time. In a month I will be leaving the idyllic seaside town of Gloucester, MA and moving to Brooklyn to pursue my master’s in music. In preparation to begin my life in the big city, I must pay homage to the people, places, and things that have made this summer so magical. New friends, old friends, soul sisters, napping in the warm sand, malbec on the beach, skinny dipping, late night dance parties, exploring new territories spiritually and physically, and making beautiful music with dear people are just a few of the memories I will hold close to my heart for the rest of my life.

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the livin is easy

J. Crew linen tee, TEXTILE Elizabeth and James Neil shorts, Via Spiga Eve platforms

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the outnet

Currently obsessed with The Outnet’s to-die-for selection of See by Chloe <3 So many beautiful summery dresses, cardigans, and skirts!

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the blow “true affection”

I’m posting this instead of the actual music video because it is TRULY terrible. But this song has been on repeat ever since I discovered it thanks to Pandora. I’m obsessed with the unnerving instrumental.

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personal

Apologies for the lack of blogging lately, but my life suddenly turned into a whirlwind of work, work, and more work. Since September, I’ve been in the process of trying to get into graduate school to pursue my Master’s in classical voice/opera, and a few weeks ago I solidified my decision to attend NYU! I’m thrilled to be attending, however, with this decision comes the new stresses of finding a place to live, adjusting to a new city, and financing the move and my education. Thus, I’ve taken on additional jobs and have become a total workaholic to avoid having to live in a box in Central Park. Not fun, as I love having the freedom to be creative and socialize, neither of which I can do anymore as there simply aren’t enough hours in the day. I keep telling myself it will be worth it though, when I can finally call myself a New Yorker after dreaming of this for as long as I can remember!

Of course, apartment hunting and moving isn’t all stressful; I’m stoked about shopping for my future place! Although I haven’t found my abode yet, I’ve already started mentally furnishing and decorating it. Ok…I admit. Today I actually bought some towels and kitchen supplies. I know, I know, I might be jumping the gun a little but shopping for home is just too damn exciting! From the Louis Ghost Armchair by Philippe Starck to Diptyque candles, my wishlist is endless. Good thing I have a birthday in July…hello, mom and dad!

I’m also dork-ishly excited to go to class again and carry around cute notebooks. These french notebooks by Laughing Elephant are number one on my school supplies list; aren’t they just the cutest?!

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latest loves

Deeply inspired by these images:

images via on display and we heart it

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camera obscura

I’m enthralled by artist Abelardo Morell’s use of camera obscura! He utilizes an ancient technique to turn walls into multi-dimensional vistas you find yourself wanting to step into.

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